one of those days

Today I was feeling really down and questioning certain things in my life. I turn 24 next week, when I was younger in high school I had so many goals and places I thought I would be at the age of 24. So today it hit me only some of those goals that I had came true, a lot of the goals I had have yet to happen. Some days like today I get so upset that I put things on hold to be there for my mom when she was sick, to be supportive of my boyfriend/fiance when he decided to go to the army. It's weird though because after I was done feeling sorry for myself. I got on facebook and there was a video that someone had posted, so I decided to watch it. It got me to thinking that life definitely doesn't have a set course and that everyone gets to the point that God wants them to get to on his time. Anyways so the video was about Military girlfriend/spouse and it just hit home. I guess I should mention that the reason it hit home so much is because I had gotten mad at my guy because I blamed him for not being able to go to school without feeling guilty of not being with him. So the video hit home because it made me realize I shouldn't be blaming him when he's doing what he has to make a better living for both himself and me and at the same time he's risking his life for his country! So in the end I feel bad I apologized and of course the nice guy he is he says it's fine and is nice to me, I definitely feel bad :(.

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